To purge on your loves bleeding heart.

I want to grasp your pain inside my clenched fist, with strained white knuckles and nails digging into fleshy palms.Grasp it so tightly that it cannot escape back into you and eat you up and make you ill.I want to steal it from you, make a boat for it to sail away on , watch it go into the distant horizon and never, never return.isa x

Owning Everything.

You worry that I will leave you
I will not leave you
Only strangers travel.
Owning everything,
I have no where to go.


Leonard Cohen

I have moved back to Auckland City to be near the ones I love.Most of these photographs were taken by Nicholas my lovely partner, on a day trip to Devonport to play on the hills with the toadstools and pretend we are in marioland.The poem is from a book of poems by Leonard Cohen called 'Stranger Music '.Which I was reading whilst sitting at the top of the hill in the sun.I love Leonard's poetry almost as much as his music but I guess they are interchangeable anyway.You can't have one without the other in my opinion.I will try and post more often once I get settled.I am living between a few places at the moment with my possessions packed away and seem to be constantly carrying bags of clothes and art supplies with me where ever I go.Anyway to any of you out there who happen past my humble blog thanks for looking and please feel free to comment.love isa x

My immortal beloved

 I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves.

      Your love makes me at once the happiest and the      
                    unhappiest of men.

Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

Palpitating flames of life

Deathly water and blue smoke.
I sit and sigh,
Inside my thoughtful orb.
I wait in vain.
My words small and humble.
The forgotten flaws
and hidden truths,(brazen lies).
Seeing eyes and fumbling fingers.
I lay and sleep
For as long as infinity lives.

People flicker around me.

Red by Ted Hughes

               Red was your colour.
            If not red, then white.But red

               was what you wrapped around you.
                   Blood red.Was it blood?
             Was it red-ochre, for warming the dead?
                     Haematite to make immortal
          the precious heirloom bones, the family bones.

The long way homeward

I took the long way home today.All along the beautiful Wellington water front.I watched as the tide came and went , and threw stones like thoughts, hitting the choppy water, bouncing on the surface then sinking down ,down, down.I am in love with this city and will be sad to go.

smells like piss and lost hope